It’s late and feeling helpless

by Consumer Queen on October 12, 2009

Not sure why I am posting this late. Maybe cause I don’t have anyone to call this late that I can talk to. It’s almost midnight and I was awaken to Daniel literally screaming from the other room. He has already taken all the meds he can tonight. This has been one of our worst nights ever in a long time. It was so bad that I tried to make him understand that he needed to calm down for the kids sake, because they would have been scared to death to see him like this. How do you tell someone who is in that amount of pain to calm down? How do you put yourself in their shoes?How do you truly understand what they are going through?

How do you get through a night watching someone you love scream in pain knowing there is nothing you can do for them? I can’t really describe what it’s like watching a grown man turn into someone so helpless. Sometimes it’s really hard being the strong one. Working full time, going with many a night with no sleep sometimes starts to take a toll on you. My blog, my readers are sometimes the only thing that keeps me going. Sometimes I don’t understand why God has given us this journey but I truly believe everything happens for a reason.I received some very good news today at work so naturally it was the perfect time for the Devil to take his toll. I’m not asking you to feel sorry for us tonight, I am only asking you to do one thing! Turn to the one you love and tell them you love them, never take the time you have with them for granted. Be thankful for your health and enjoy the things you have always wanted to do.(enjoy the little things). You never know what’s around the corner.

(for those of you who are new to my blog my husband has AS you can read our “about me“)

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  1. Opening yourself to your readers opens yourself to gaining a trust and a relationship. I love this post because your guard is down and I can feel that sadness in your words. Wonderful!
  2. Thank you so much for sharing and for reminding all of us of what it truly important in our lives. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
  3. Donna Holmberg
    Once you have my number you can call me ANYTIME (even 2:00 a.m.) if you need to talk.
  4. Donna Holmberg
    Email me at one6ylady(at)aol(dot)com right now and send me you phone number and I'll call and we can chat. Or let me know you want my number and I'll give it to you so you can call me. I'm here for you to just vent with if you need me.

    Donna
  5. We are praying for you and your family. God knows your needs and your heart along with the number of hairs on your head. He will make a way when there seems to be no way! He is sovereign and will continue to meet your needs! 2 Corinthians 4:16 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. 17 For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, 18 as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
  6. You guys are truly amazing! I am sitting here at a Blogging Conferance reading every single one of your comments , crying.

    This is exactly why I blog. To engage with real moms, real women, going through similar situations coming together to be there for each other. What a wonderful online community we have here.

    Daniel is doing much better this week, it seems that when the weather gets bad, cold, rainy snowy etc. that is when he gets worth. It's always an up and down.

    For those of you going through similar situation , I pray that God will give you the strength to get through each day. The peace that everything happens for a reason. Even though God may be out of sight , Love is waiting in the wings!
  7. I'm so sorry to learn of your husband's pain. And thanks for the reminder---the kids have been driving me batty lately and I need to remember to be grateful that I have them and that they're healthy. I will keep you in my prayers.
  8. Melissa
    Melissa,
    I am sorry you had a tough night. I am one who can understand your feelings. My husband is not sick but, my oldest daughter has Focal Parietal Complex Seizure Disorder. We have many nights up watching grand mall seizures. I feel like you and I both have a lot in common. I too, have a hobby of clipping coupons and turned it into a business. I too, have a serious life altering illness or disability in my family. And, My name is Melissa too! Fun! I love following your .com and thank you for the things you have done to help me in my journey. I feel at though you have a ton of support and I would love to be part of it.

    Melissa
    Savings Queen
  9. God knows how much you can bare. That is why he is allowing your family through go through these trying times. I consider any situation a test from GOD. He thinks so well of me that he would give me a test to take me to a higher level. I am always reminded of JOB. GOD had a conversation with the Devil and GOD said have you considered my servant JOB. Be a JOB in this situation, yet will I TRUST HIM! Praying for your family.
  10. I am new here and tonight is the first time I am learning of your struggles. I hope you have a better day tomorrow and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care and thank you for sharing with us.
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