I am one of those people that holds everything in and then wants to explode. I want everything to be fair and life is not fair. I need to let things roll off of me istead of internalizing everything and then just becoming a bitter old hag. I've got to learn to let things go and that is the opposite of my personality and I hate myself for it. Can everyone just pray I can learn to forgive and FORGET, to not internalize everything and learn to get over things, it's like my mind will not let me forget things and that is the only things I can remember. I know what the Bible says about forgiving and I want to apply it to my life it is just so hard. I am a perfectionists and when things do not go the way I think they should I can not handle it and I have got to learn to take things easy and not loose it over the little things that have grown huge in my mind only.

how'd you get in my head?! goodness, I have been there (still there in some areas). I will pray for you, because it takes God's help for sure. I am learning to not let things get to me, but its a process. I finally accepted that I was slowly killing myself with all the stress I was putting myself under. I also recognize that its a weakness that the enemy is using to pull me away from God.

There are things I would love to forget, but that is not necessarily part of forgiveness if that makes sense it stinks that sometimes we are not allowed to forget, but it does serve to strengthen ourselves and our faith.

I pray that God will lead you to be obedient and willing to His call. Sometimes He uses things we wouldn't expect to teach us how to overcome our weaknesses (like obedience to Him).

Also, if you have a church home, you might have them pray for you too. I know its hard sharing our imperfections with others, but sometimes it helps to have others pray right there for you. And sometimes in the process you help others know that they are not alone.

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Kristie M.
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Do not rob the poor because he is poor, And oppress not the afflicted at the gate.
For YHWH pleads their cause, And shall plunder those who plunder them. Prov. 22:22-23

I used to be the same way. It took a long time to change the way I think....and a LOT of conversations with God. I really don't get upset as easily as I used to, and I really find myself forgetting things even happened. It's a wonderful place to be. Just remind yourself CONSTANTLY that you are in God's hands, and He knows everything that's going on around and with you. Honestly, if it's something that you can do something about, do it. If not, have an out loud talk with God and admit that the problem or situation is too big for you to handle, and tell Him you're turning it over to Him. He'll take it with a smile. He's just like every other parent in the world, we want our kids to be grown up, but we still like to be needed every once in a while. It takes practice, but I'm praying for you!

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It is not that you need to forgive and forget. You need to accept is all. If you forget then you may make that same mistake again. I myself and having problems with this. I have been told in the past that it is impossible to forget that I need to work on forgiving and accepting and then going on.

I have a very hard time doing this where ex hubby (curently in custody battle with him) and my current husband are concerened. I should forgive my current hubby for his mistakes/behavior/outbursts (as aggrevating as they are) and accept them and move on...but darn it if things do not fly out of my mouth in the heat of the moment after they have been simmering for weeks! Now with ex-hubby it is so hard to keep my mouth shut and accept that there is nothing I should say at the moment and just wait to bring it all out at Court but it will be worth it in the end!

You are all in my prayers for this.

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~Karen
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